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Sep. 14th, 2005 09:06 amWell I continue to be in a fairly foul mood. Just everything that could irritates me for no particular reason. Perhaps it's post-op depression. Perhaps it's general psychic stress from Katrina. And I am deeply upset by it on some visceral emotional level. I know the rights thing has been bothering me. Governor Terminator's veto of marriage rights in California, our own constitutional convention today--which we wll win but will postpone rather than stop the final electoral showdown, and the Gwen Araujo case, which has particular resonance to me because her murder happened in the few weeks that I was starting to come out as trans. Maybe it's troubles in EQ2 which did a 180 and when we were really on the verge of putting our guild together again, it just exploded. And I feel so strongly about RA, but I don't havea lot of emotional strength for officer stuff right now. But overall, Goddess, I'm one horrid bitch to deal with even though I'm trying not to be.
It's just this general raw feeling and I can't seem to shake it.
Other than that, things are actually not all that horrible. I need to get off my butt and shop for a new stove. But that's more of a pleasure than anything else, though it's change and I'm not in the mood for much change. Work is going ok.
Today I'm trying to figure out if I should talk to Lisa nad see about getting the rest of the day off and running up to the state house for the marriage rights rally. Probably I won't. I'm just too tired. That's my own fault, not the emotional fatigue. I ended up chatting until late. If it was close, I would definitely go. But this one looks like a win thank goodness.
It's just this general raw feeling and I can't seem to shake it.
Other than that, things are actually not all that horrible. I need to get off my butt and shop for a new stove. But that's more of a pleasure than anything else, though it's change and I'm not in the mood for much change. Work is going ok.
Today I'm trying to figure out if I should talk to Lisa nad see about getting the rest of the day off and running up to the state house for the marriage rights rally. Probably I won't. I'm just too tired. That's my own fault, not the emotional fatigue. I ended up chatting until late. If it was close, I would definitely go. But this one looks like a win thank goodness.